Thursday, February 5, 2009

I Feel Weird...

Recently I've realized that I've been feeling really strange. Some of you might call it "manic" and still some of you may have referred to the fact that I might be "cracking the fuck up."

Whatever. You guys can be so mean.

But truly, I have been feeling weird and suddenly as I was driving back to my office from lunch with Jason today, it hit me.

I was sitting behind the wheel and I was all, "Wait, what is that? Is that what I think it is? Is that happiness? Yes, Yes, I think it is."

When I laugh, I'm feeling it on the inside rather than just laughing because it's what I'm supposed to do.

Suddenly it feels like there is life inside of me again. I don't feel like the soft underbelly of a raw nerve ending.

I feel alive.

And, I haven't felt this way in nearly 4 years. Not since Jadon died.

Much to my husband's chagrin, we suddenly remembered why everyone used to say that I reminded them of Dharma or Dharma reminded them of me, and let it be said that Jason is definitely the Greg to my Dharma.

So what appears to be me cracking up, is actually the first time I've been "normal" in so very long.

To celebrate this feeling, I have put together the BEST DRAWING EVER!

That's right, I went there.



Say it with me now! TADOW!

20 comments:

Dirty Pirate Hooker said...

That truly was the best drawing ever.

And as Ghost says, I understand things only when they're illustrated for me. So thank you.

I like this Tits McGee!

ajillofalltrades said...

TADOW!!

OK...so manic is normal for you...

Whatever it is, I like it. And I'm glad you feel good, too. :)

Now I feel the need to watch some Teen Wolf. It's been a while.

Rassles said...

I...I love it.

Speechless.

Rassles said...

Seriously, completely sans words.

Betsey Booms said...

I know. I don't know where it came from.

It came from my... my... SOUL!

Arjewtino said...

I remember that feeling. I get it when I watch Teen Wolf, too.

Gwen said...

I, for one, am glad you clarified that was a van and not a scion. 'cuz I was looking at it and I was like oh that's so totally a scion.

That Chick Over There said...

Seriously. I would marry you.

Betsey Booms said...

Dude! I'd marry myself, but I live in the state of Missouri and I'm not my own cousin, so it can't happen.

Lisa..... said...

I'm so glad you clarified that it was NOT a scion. I hate those cars.


I'm feeling kind of happy too.

rachie! said...

Glad you are feeling good! And here's to hoping we don't get beaver on a stick stop signs in my neck 'o the woods!

rachie! said...

Yeah, on closer inspection (and thx to my mad skillz as a wildlife biologist) - it's a damn groundhog! I'm the most unobservant biologist ever!

for a different kind of girl said...

I remember that feeling struck me again after a long, long bleak period. I just flippin' WISH Teen Wolf would have been part of the equation, too!

Tiffany said...

Manic is the new normal. Don't worry we are all crazy.

Vodka Mom said...

manic is the new black.

or is bitchy the new black?

or is BLACK the new black???

Christ, I can't keep it straight.

:-)

Bird Shit and Baby Caca said...

LOL I love the comic!

Shawna said...

what, no shiv?

~previous lurker

Betsey Booms said...

Shawna - Hey there, nice to meet and simultaneously disappoint you with my lack of shiv.

I'll try harder.

Miss Merry Sunshine said...

Clearly all the planets have aligned because I am happy too. How fucking bizarre is that. I think you made Stiles' head to big ;)

gwendomama said...

What seems like you cracking up is actually you getting some normal.
Wow.
I'm totally gonna use that one on friends who have only known me since Elijah died....Thank you.
Very much.